Crisis -- The deadly box -- Aris -- Lucy -- Thirst for commitment -- New York City -- Manhattan Island swim : game changer -- The first expedition -- Havana -- Athlete identity crisis -- Heartache -- The person my dog thinks I am -- Dors bien, Maman -- Sixty: existential angst -- The dream rekindled -- It's on! 2010 -- First summer in Key West -- Sharif -- Back to Key West -- Buck up, another go: 2011 -- Guts before glory -- Red alert -- Unprepared for the unexpected -- Whisper of hope -- The last hurrah: 2012 -- In medias res -- Will: no limits -- Impasse: 2013 -- Atheist in awe -- Infinitude -- Find a way -- The yellow brick road -- Never, ever give up -- One wild and precious life -- Credit due -- Notes from the author -- The Xtreme Dream Team -- Training logs.